[ There's probably some yelling in the background where she is right now, so Weiss speaks up. Whatever, there's not much of a choice. ]
I know you don't have control over how long you've been here or when you left, Yang. It just gets challenging-- losing you, and Blake, and Ruby over and over again and every time I have to make a decision that the Weiss that each of you knew wouldn't have because of my experiences here, it ends up being a problem. Whether it's that I have different people I trust and consider my teammates now, or because I was in a leadership role that no one from home seems to be able to accept, or because I make decisions like trying to find a way to work with murderers because I honestly believe that second chances are important no matter how far someone's gone as long as they truly want to change. And I know that's not your fault and you couldn't possibly know that until you've seen it and I'm sorry it came out in such an.. abrupt way.
I know, Weiss. I lost each one of you too, when I was here before, and it sucked. But that was only once. I can't imagine how much worse it would be to have it keep happening like that, so...
[So of course she'd prefer to have the people she knows and who have stuck around longer to the ones who haven't. But she doesn't know how to say it without hurting either of them.]
I get it. I just want to figure out how to deal with it, so you don't keep questioning my actions, or assuming I'd do something horrible that I definitely wouldn't. And I don't know if that was what a previous me did or what, but...just have a little more faith. I'm on your side.
[She adds quickly.]
For what it's worth, though, his past didn't even come up, and I didn't wind up saying anything stupid. So you don't have to worry about me asking about it anymore, I was just...scared, you know? He'd come so far. I was afraid, after something like that, he might decide to just give up or take it as a sign that he couldn't change. So I freaked out, and I shouldn't have.
I didn't.. I wasn't questioning your actions, I just don't think that I had the right to talk about something like that for someone else. People who have... well, even one decent human being for a parent don't tend to understand and they don't tend to react in ways that help no matter how well they mean. [ Having the support is amazing, having the unwanted assistance and arguments with her father any time he does something her friends don't think is okay... ] It's that he trusts me that I couldn't tell you. I want to make sure you understand it isn't that I don't trust you, okay? It's just.. not that simple.
Not that. I totally get your reasons for holding back. It was stuff you said before, you know? Like when I offered to hang out with Whitley, you acted as if I'd volunteered to take him to a strip club.
[There's a bit of warmth in her voice, so she's probably not holding a grudge.]
But I know your relationship with your dad isn't great. That's why I asked you, instead of him, because you'd know what I should say and what I should avoid. And maybe I'll get around to asking him about it someday, when I think he's ready. Just like I'll ask you.
Yang, I think you'd be a great influence on him. But our father is... oppressive. Whitley can't fight; Winter couldn't teach him behind his back like she could me. He can't get out of that, here or home, and that he's tried at all... He finally told me he wanted to have a teenage rebellion and his idea of doing that was sneaking into my home and eating finger food, and that's a huge step, Yang. That's what my father's like- the kind of person who makes eating tacos something to make you feel fear over.
[ She gives Yang a soft smile- she can't see it since it's voice of course, but she really does mean it. ]
Until Whitley can stand up to him, Whitley's the only one who's going to get in trouble for any of our actions anymore. I don't know if playing a board game that isn't chess is too "beneath a Schnee" or if he's going to get in trouble for hanging out in an amusement park and making an uncool face on the on-ride photo. So yes, I'm a little protective of him. That isn't because of you, Yang. It's because I know what it's like to look in the mirror and only see him and barely remember who I even am. You helped me find that again, but it was only possible because our father wasn't at Beacon. That's why I chose not to go to Atlas in the first place.
[Why do Weiss's dad and Mercury's dad have to be such jerks. It's so much better to be a dorky overprotective dad who keeps trying to be cool, and makes really bad jokes, and sends dogs in the mail.]
Why does that guy have so much power over here, though? It's not like anything we do in this place has any influence on what happens back home. Not that I've seen, anyway.
[OOC: And if you need to have Yang say something embarrassing right when Mercury shows up...]
Because he took it, like he always does and always has. I was City Guardian, I made arrangements so he couldn't touch Schnee Company and he couldn't set foot in Whitley and my house. So he became mayor, which meant I didn't have any choice to work with him- in his eyes, beneath him, as City Guardian. When I told him I wasn't his possession, when I said it loud and clear, he told me eventually every single person I cared about would leave me once I had nothing else left. Since then he's systematically destroyed every single thing I've done to protect us- the house is his, he can influence Schnee Company.. if he wants to take it from Whitley, he can. He's probably just waiting until the right moment. That was when I realized I couldn't handle him taking anything else, and there was a big chance he was going to get what he wanted and I couldn't protect Nova City like that.
[ There's not much of a smile left in her voice at that point. ]
Like I said, he has it because he took it and he knows I don't actually want to hurt him and I won't do anything half as bad as he will to take things back. [ A brief pause, before she adds with a twinge of 'oops' in her voice: ] Well, unless I'm hopped up on a supervillain Halloween costume and try to take over Nova City.
[ OOC: As if Mercury isn't embarrassing enough on his own?? She might actually die if those two double-teamed her. ]
I don't think anyone's going to want me to be a queen at this point, Yang. Mercury's literally on his way to let me out of jail right now. I don't want to rule either.
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also date is corrected to 10/23 not 21. i oopsed on the timeline.
Glad you two are doing so well.
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[She sends the message, but it's gnawing on her not to say what she really wants to.]
I'm sorry
[Not enough, she can't do this through text.]
Hold on.
[Five seconds after the text is sent, there's a ring.]
I'm so sorry I snapped at you. I didn't mean it.
ignore that date it's at some point after mercury texted her i will figure out the timeline soon
[ There's probably some yelling in the background where she is right now, so Weiss speaks up. Whatever, there's not much of a choice. ]
I know you don't have control over how long you've been here or when you left, Yang. It just gets challenging-- losing you, and Blake, and Ruby over and over again and every time I have to make a decision that the Weiss that each of you knew wouldn't have because of my experiences here, it ends up being a problem. Whether it's that I have different people I trust and consider my teammates now, or because I was in a leadership role that no one from home seems to be able to accept, or because I make decisions like trying to find a way to work with murderers because I honestly believe that second chances are important no matter how far someone's gone as long as they truly want to change. And I know that's not your fault and you couldn't possibly know that until you've seen it and I'm sorry it came out in such an.. abrupt way.
Details Schmetails!
[So of course she'd prefer to have the people she knows and who have stuck around longer to the ones who haven't. But she doesn't know how to say it without hurting either of them.]
I get it. I just want to figure out how to deal with it, so you don't keep questioning my actions, or assuming I'd do something horrible that I definitely wouldn't. And I don't know if that was what a previous me did or what, but...just have a little more faith. I'm on your side.
[She adds quickly.]
For what it's worth, though, his past didn't even come up, and I didn't wind up saying anything stupid. So you don't have to worry about me asking about it anymore, I was just...scared, you know? He'd come so far. I was afraid, after something like that, he might decide to just give up or take it as a sign that he couldn't change. So I freaked out, and I shouldn't have.
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[There's a bit of warmth in her voice, so she's probably not holding a grudge.]
But I know your relationship with your dad isn't great. That's why I asked you, instead of him, because you'd know what I should say and what I should avoid. And maybe I'll get around to asking him about it someday, when I think he's ready. Just like I'll ask you.
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[ She gives Yang a soft smile- she can't see it since it's voice of course, but she really does mean it. ]
Until Whitley can stand up to him, Whitley's the only one who's going to get in trouble for any of our actions anymore. I don't know if playing a board game that isn't chess is too "beneath a Schnee" or if he's going to get in trouble for hanging out in an amusement park and making an uncool face on the on-ride photo. So yes, I'm a little protective of him. That isn't because of you, Yang. It's because I know what it's like to look in the mirror and only see him and barely remember who I even am. You helped me find that again, but it was only possible because our father wasn't at Beacon. That's why I chose not to go to Atlas in the first place.
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[Why do Weiss's dad and Mercury's dad have to be such jerks. It's so much better to be a dorky overprotective dad who keeps trying to be cool, and makes really bad jokes, and sends dogs in the mail.]
Why does that guy have so much power over here, though? It's not like anything we do in this place has any influence on what happens back home. Not that I've seen, anyway.
[OOC: And if you need to have Yang say something embarrassing right when Mercury shows up...]
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[ There's not much of a smile left in her voice at that point. ]
Like I said, he has it because he took it and he knows I don't actually want to hurt him and I won't do anything half as bad as he will to take things back. [ A brief pause, before she adds with a twinge of 'oops' in her voice: ] Well, unless I'm hopped up on a supervillain Halloween costume and try to take over Nova City.
[ OOC: As if Mercury isn't embarrassing enough on his own?? She might actually die if those two double-teamed her. ]
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Is that what happened? I wasn't really sure what the deal was. Just looked like you were having fun!
[Otherwise Yang proooobably would have hit pause on the Mercury hunt to go help her out. Oops indeed.]
Well...if he can apply to be the mayor, maybe you should apply to be the queen of Fayren! And prove that you can rule a lot better than he can.
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[ She almost laughs at that. ]
I don't think anyone's going to want me to be a queen at this point, Yang. Mercury's literally on his way to let me out of jail right now. I don't want to rule either.
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[She smiles and finally lets herself sit back and relax.]
I mean, you wouldn't let any monsters run wild, and you wouldn't hoard the treasury away or anything.
But say hi to Mercury and his sexy legs for me when he gets there.
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I'll be sure to forward the message. He's coming now. [ BYE YANG SHES HANGING UP ]